A Special Friend


         You meet a person just once and you instantly know that you will be best friends forever. Other friendships develop over an extended period of time. In some friendships you may feel a sense of equality, while in others there may be a clear sense that one is giving more to the friendship than the other. There are no rules about how a friendship has to be. However some set their own limitations considering many other priorities in their life. All friendships are unique and special in their own way. Each one is valuable. Who is your special friend then? What makes that friendship undoubtedly special and unexplained to the rest? You meet that person. And if you are able to share every aspect of your life with them with absolutely no secracy maintained, if you cannot stay uncomfortable with that person for more than few minutes, if your anger is not lasting longer than a day, if your lies are because you care and you don't want to lose them, if you don't mind being intimidated by their presence, by all means go right ahead. They are your special friend and they can make you live your dreams.  

       Many tell me, "You are so sweet but you are equally dry. Your smiles are so genuine but your eyes talk deep. Your heart is so pure but you are hidden". Will they understand if I respond, "This is what happens when I miss my special friend"? That is happening because I miss you.

         You made me realise this long back. I don't think you can ever fully understand again how you've touched my life and made me who I am. I don't think you can ever know again just how truly special you are, that even on the darkest nights, you are still my brightest star and I look around in hope to hear your voice just once. You've allowed me to experience something very hard to find. That unconditional love in me that exists in my heart and soul today. I don't think you can ever feel again all the love I have to give. And you can never realize again that you've been my will to let my heart still beat. Having you in my life completed and fulfilled every part of me.  
                                                                           
           I know you make me happy when with me. I have seen that. But you are taken. Taken away from me, taken very far. You don't belong to me anymore. You were wanted elsewhere, by someone else and you chose them too. I live with a satisfying pain that you never loved me enough to live with me. You never wanted me enough to stay back for me or to give me a little more time of yours, your everyday. Now am only left with many my friends who keep saying that I should let you go off my mind. They envy at times for considering you more special amongst them all. They try to cheer me up, feel responsible for me and encourage me to divert my focus onto something "better". How simple life could be, if I can make them understand that you are not just any friend, you are so special!! And nothing else can ever be any "better" when you are "The Best" that ever happened to me!! 
      
       I keep going through our memories every now and then. That's always what I do cause that's all you've left me with now, just memories of you. You denied whenever I wanted to capture our pictures together, you never understood why I needed them. Looking at your pictures just makes me smile. They make me feel like am looking at you and my life feels worthwhile. Now I close my eyes just because I can dream. And in my dreams, I wish that you're always there and that we'll never be apart. We'll be together forever. But waking up I accept that you are nowhere around me but in my heart. And only you can make me feel this way because still, you are my only special friend, that special one, amongst my all other friends.

Cheers,
FEBAH MARTIN



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  1. UnknownDecember 9, 2017 at 8:19 PM

    Friendship or any other relation doesn't mean that you meet again and again. In few relationship we don't know how they build stronger and stronger.I think a person who had experience of good and bad can be a good friend. Sometime we feel he/she is our good friend.Our eyes heart or whole body feels that only he or she can understand me without any expectations beyond so many miles away and it's very rare.I have also one person like this but now due to his/her busy schedule I miss but the idea of forgetting never come in our mind.When we have such friend than we can say friend is special.A relation of all relationships.very hard to find such.Wo can make Ur inner core of heart happy and healthy.it doesn't means to express anything.

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  2. UnknownDecember 10, 2017 at 9:58 PM

    So nice from true friends

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