Febah Martin

Lessons, quietly contemplated about my PAST, Life wisely placed me in situations that didn't last Problems hit me time to time in a row They forced me to raise up to the challenges and grow Still from my past I see no point in getting stuck Where I lingered on in familiarity with no luck I replayed old memories over and over again I didn't realise my capabilities, what I am and what I can The state of merely existing, am aware of my PRESENT What paths I walk in are not so easy and pleasant My true life began to unfold and pass me silently  I don't care if it continues to hit me violently My past is long gone and my future yet unknown As usual am walking alone, taking steps on my own I notice that am now a part of a grander scheme  My present is the most precious moment that will always stream I won't neglect my present, neither overindulge in my FUTURE I will go with the flow and just be a great watcher  I won't daydream about leading a gran

Failures and rejections, like storm, are all around me, They are everywhere, their noises in my head Hitting it with stronger rocks, Hurting my heart though,  Leaving it in pools of blood each time I try harder Pushing me aside and suddenly drawing a silent border  What have I done to myself?  What have I become? What happened to all that intellectuality, That I learned through tough experiences? Was it my fears, or hatred for life? Or my overwhelming love for someone who left me behind? Was it my insecurities that are now, Making me crave for something that’s not possible on earth? Is it my mistake to trust a friend,  To be my special ones and be worth? Of course it was a disaster The unbearable dearest secret,  Has always been a disaster, The danger when only one of us feels it delicate. Going over and over afterward, What we should have done, Instead of what we actually did. But for those short times,  We seemed to be perfectl

         You meet a person just once and you instantly know that you will be best friends forever. Other friendships develop over an extended period of time. In some friendships you may feel a sense of equality, while in others there may be a clear sense that one is giving more to the friendship than the other. There are no rules about how a friendship has to be. However some set their own limitations considering many other priorities in their life. All friendships are unique and special in their own way. Each one is valuable. Who is your special friend then? What makes that friendship undoubtedly special and unexplained to the rest? You meet that person. And if you are able to share every aspect of your life with them with absolutely no secracy maintained, if you cannot stay uncomfortable with that person for more than few minutes, if your anger is not lasting longer than a day, if your lies are because you care and you don't want to lose them, if you don't mind being inti